Friday, September 30, 2011

And so it begins

Remember the dilemma I had on when I should take the antibiotics? Well Wan called the hospital yesterday and the nurse told him that I can start taking them now. So I took a dose this morning, marking the beginning our IVF cycle #1. I'm praying so hard that it will work the first time. I'm taking this slow and I'm trying to keep in mind that whatever happens is His will. InsyaAllah good things will happen to us :)

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Here's to hoping

So my husband and I went back to his hometown for a kenduri doa selamat. The kenduri was for his two sisters-in-laws who will be giving birth soon, and also for us who will go through our first (and hopefully last) IVF next month. The kenduri went well Alhamdulillah so now we'll just have to go through with it and hopefully we'll be pregnant.

One of my friends who will also be doing her first IVF soon voiced her fears to me. She's not scared if the lain. She's scared that it won't work. I can understand her fears. We're investing a lot in this procedure and I'm not talking only in monetary terms, but emotional as well. I don't what I would do if it doesn't turn out the way that I hope it would, Nauzubillah but I guess I'll just have to have faith that He knows what is best for me and that everything that happens is His will. With that in mind InsyaAllah I'll be ok. And I hope my friend will too.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

What Were They Thinking?

I was having dinner with my buttcheeks today and one of them told us about a girl she met at the office who appeared to be depressed. And my buttcheek asked her what was wrong. It turned out that the girl is pregnant but she doesn't want to be and she was considering terminating the pregnancy because she was afraid that being pregnant would affect her career. What the fish? Firstly, termination the pregnancy is against the religion. And secondly, she was thinking about her career before her family? Sorry but I cannot understand that.

And then my buttcheek went on to tell me about another colleague who is pregnant and whenever her baby kicked her from within, she would get really angry andscold the baby. What kind of mother does that to a baby who is not even born yet? Sometimes I wonder what goes through these women's minds. Oh wait. Maybe I'd be better off not knowing.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Baby making: The next chapter

So I'm gonna start my first IVF cycle next month (and hopefully my last). I was supposed to start this month but with the Eid celebration and my niece and nephew being back from the UK made it impossible to do so. I'm glad we waited though. My niece and nephew, adorable they may be can be like monster trucks at times, barging into me and clinging on as if their lives depended on it.

To say I'm scared is an understatement. Well actually I've got a thousand different emotions jumbled up inside me. Fear, apprehension, anxiety, excitement. You name it. A doctor friend of mine advised me to No. 1 eat healthy and organic food, No. 2 get plenty of rest i.e sleep early and get plenty of rest, No. 3 exercise and No. 4 to manage my stress. So far I've only managed to do No. 2 :P

I've been talking to a friend of a friend who has done an IVF and was successful. She has recently given birth to a beautiful baby boy Alhamdulillah. Talking to her gives me some comfort plus she gave me tips on the do's and don'ts before, during and after the procedure.

I know I'll be expecting buckets of tears to be shed from beginning to end. I've learned from my previous failed IUI's that fertility drugs will put me on an emotional rollercoaster ride and seeing that the dosage for the IVF is a lot higher than IUI, I've warned my husband, boss and colleagues (who know that I'm doing this) to be prepared.

I think I'm almost ready for the next chapter in our baby making effort (is anyone ever fully ready?) but now I'm faced with a problem. My doc gave me Zithromax antibiotics which I'm supposed to take but for the life of me I cannot remember when I'm supposed to take them and I can't seem to get hold of him to ask. If any of you could tell that would be great.




I have an appointment with my doctor on the 4th of next month just to ask him whatever questions that we missed the last time we saw him. I'm hoping and praying that this procedure will work but I know that everything that happens or will happen is in The Almighty's hands. InsyaAllah with the doa of my family and friends our efforts will be fruitful Amiiinn :)

Thursday, September 8, 2011

The Green Eyed Monster

So me and Wan went back to Kuala Pilah to celebrate Eid. I know this sounds bad but I was hoping that my SIL who is three months (?) pregnant would be celebrating Eid at her hometown in Ipoh. But alas everybody decided to celebrate Eid in Kuala Pilah. So it was four days of mental torture. Ok so I was being dramatic but everytime I see her rub her non-existent baby tummy I feel like smothering myself with a pillow. For goodness sake you are not even showing woman! Stop rubbing your tummy. I get that she's ecstatic that she's with child. Heck I would be too but just the sight of her rubbing her tummy was enough to bring the green eyed monster in me. I wonder how long this feeling will last. Probably until I myself get pregnant which is not good. Jealousy is an ugly trait and I admit that. But I can't help it, can I?