Sunday, June 22, 2014

Polyp? Autoimmune disease? What?

So I had my hysteroscopy on Thursday evening and my RE found that everything is A-ok. Surprise surprise. I think she's a a bit at loss as to how to fix me. She did find a small polyp though, removed it and sent it to the lab for testing. She also asked if anyone in my family has a history of arthritis and I told her no. She seemed a bit concerned about arthritis which made me concerned. As soon as she stepped out of the room I remembered that my mom had her kneecaps replaced due to osteoarthritis. I texted her and told her but have not received a reply yet. Oh well. My next appointment is next Friday. We'll see what she says and we'll go from there, yes? And hopefully the small polyp is nothing to worry about.

And here's DH exhausted keeping me company at the hospital after a day's work. Poor guy. Too bad the hospital didn't have single rooms available or he could have spent the night in my room :(

In other news, me being stubborn went to the gym this morning and joined the body step class. Told a white lie to DH and fold him that I walked on the treadmill. And whaddaya know, when I came home this evening I started bleeding again. So ladies, lesson number one, no exercise so soon after a hysteroscopy procedure. Lesson number two, never ever tell a white to your husband. Ever.

Also, do people who just had babies only ever talk about their babies in conversations? Must learn to tune this out. I have enough heartaches to last me a lifetime. Yes, this is the bitter me speaking. La di da.

Well, hope you guys had a great weekend!

Saturday, June 14, 2014

I'm Pissed

So earlier this week a friend from school texted me out of the blue. After exchanging pleasantries she suddenly asked me how infertility affects my marriage. I told her that Alhamdulillah DH has been very supportive. In fact he was the one who suggested we get checked up 7 years ago.

And then my friend told me that she's also TTC and it's put a strain on her marriage. She said that her husband, like her wants a baby but he doesn't want to get himself checked out, nor does he want to have anything to do with getting treatment from an RE. Now wouldn't that just annoy you? I was downright pissed! Of course I didn't tell her about my feelings and just listened as she poured her heart out. The poor girl really wants to get help and yet she feels so utterly helpless. I suggested that she go see my awesome RE and get herself checked first. And then go home and talk to her husband and persuade him to do the same. Sometimes men just need a little push eh?

I guess I'm really lucky that DH is my biggest cheerleader in our TTC journey. He's never missed an appointment, always been there with me everytime I get my blood tested and keeps me company when I have to stay overnight at the hospital, no matter how uncomfortable the bed is. I'm not saying that a husband has to do all these, but just show support damn it! Your wife is trying to have a baby and it's your damn baby too!

I could tell from the tone of the texts that my friend was on the verge of crying. Maybe she already did and it was so heartbreaking. And it bummed me that I couldn't help her except refer her to my RE and to listen as she told her story. 

I wish there was more awareness about infertility so people know that they can get help. And speaking of, I really wanted to go a fertility forum at Pantai Hospital this morning which my RE is the presenter. I think these forums is a good place to start if you are hesitant to see a doctor for a check up. Know about infertility and find out how the doctor can help. Knowledge is key, people. And guys, if you can't show support for your wives, let me know. I have my fist ready to punch you in the face. 

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Hello Friends!

Hello friends! First of all, thank you so much for your prayers and kind notes. They got me through the BFN. Speaking of BFN, I've been a real busy bee since we got the test result. Not only busy with trying again but also busy with doing my own stuff which is long overdue. First I got a haircut and put highlights to cover up my mushrooming white hair. They're horrendous! The white hair, not the highlights hehe. Then I registered with a gym and have been going three times so far. And I'm loving it! I've forgotten how good it feels to really sweat. Plus I need to lose 6kg and I need to start training for the Standard Chartered marathon in October. Thank goodness I don't mind working out. And I'm thinking of getting hubs to register at the gym too. We'll see how well that turns out hehe.

I also made a new TTC friend! While I was doing IVF #3 all we've ever done was text each other and since IVF #3 didn't work out, we arranged to meet a couple of weeks ago. And she's lovely!! So glad for the day that she first sent me an e-mail saying hello :)

Speaking of TTC, I've also been seeing the RE to follow up on our next plan. We did a whole bunch of blood tests, some of them I couldn't even pronounce. We haven't gotten the results yet though. The RE has also arranged me to do a hysteroscopy next week, so it looks like I'm gonna have to spend a couple of nights again at the hospital. Oh well. Whatever it takes to find out what's wrong with me right? 

So that's what's up with me. How are you guys doing? :)