Should I or Shouldn't I?

So yesterday, out of the blue I thought of my two angel babies. The ones that I will get to meet in heaven InsyaAllah. And then my thoughts turned to the two tickers I have on my blog to remind me of them. It's been 1 year and 9 months since DH and I said goodbye to our first angel, and 1 year 3 months to our second angel. (For some reason I always thought of my angels being a pair of a boy and a girl. Huh). And it got me thinking, is it time for me to take down those tickers? A part of me tells me not to, and that just thinking about it makes me feel guilty. But a part of me knows that I need to do it some day. Does taking them down mean that I'm forgetting? I want to move on but I never want to forget. We'll be doing our IVF #3 hopefully in January and I don't want to be plagued with worries and fear from my miscarriages. So...any thoughts on this?

Also, I was reading blogs from my blog lists and one blogger put up a link to this story on Facebook. It's just so sad and yet so beautiful and gives me such hope.

"We are warriors of angels" ~ Jessica Lyn

The Next Step and My Awesome RE

So DH and I have been talking about when our next IVF will be and DH thinks that we should go see Dr. Adilah in December and probably go through with IVF early next year. Can I just say that I'm not overly excited about this? I mean, I am a pleased with the fact that he has thought of the plan, but I'm also a bit afraid. Okay a lot afraid. Judging from the last two miscarriages, the thought of going through another round kinda scares the shit out of me. But this is something we have to do, and do it we will.

So to prepare me for the next round I hopped on over to Dr. Adilah's blog and in one of her posts where she laid down the statistics of her IVF programme, she was talking about how she's now mulling over her plan to reimburse the IVF cost if the patient's IVF fails, PROVIDED she keeps up her successful pregnancy rate of 40%-50%. For a moment there I was speechless. Here is a doctor who spends every day helping women get pregnant (and she's good at it too) and now she wants to reimburse her patients who are not successful? And I thought of how blessed I am to have found this wonderful wonderful doctor. May Allah bless her and all the other fertility specialists for helping and continuing to help women like me get pregnant.

Now I'm gonna hide in the toilet while I cry tears of joy.

Let's Celebrate!

Right. Enough of angry posts. Lets move on shall we? Cool. So DH and I celebrated our 8th anniversary two weeks ago. It was pretty low key, in a good way. DH is never one for grand gestures, so I know not to expect any, and that's totally fine by me. He had already gotten me a pair of diamond earrings a month in advance. I'm still trying to figure what to get for him. I'm a terrible wife, I know. The thing is, it's very difficult to get him a present. He's very picky and if he doesn't like it, it will stay in our dressing table drawer for eternity. Oh well, I'll figure something out, hopefully before next year's anniversary :P

He took me out to a Korean dinner at Koryo-won, which I have been craving for for so long. We had bulgogi and BBQ meat wrapped in lettuce. Awesome awesome stuff. 

Little sister also came home from Sabah for her Eid holiday, albeit a week after we celebrated Eid. But no matter, we still had tremendous fun when she was around as always. Us sisters took mom put for a dim sum lunch. Dad was out of town so that was a bummer. Again, awesome awesome food (I love food. Can you tell?) 

A day before little sister flew back to Sabah, we met up for lunch. This time the whole family (minus husbands and kids) were there. 

Next was a friend's wedding last Saturday. I had great great fun at the wedding. After the stressful week I had, that wedding was all I needed. My best friend flew home from Jakarta to attend the wedding and as usual when she's around, hilarity ensues. Lots of laughs, lots of giggles. Just perfect. 

The wedding cake. Isn't it gorgeous? Made by my best friends's sister :)

While waiting for the solemnization ceremony, we painted our nails. Because why not :P

Best friends

With the gorgeous bride and her new husband

On Sunday DH and I celebrated his 35th birthday. I took him out for dinner at La Risata and my goodness, the food was truly to die for.

This sea bream with spinach and mascarpone cheese was truly to die for

Zuppa de pesce. Very light but quite filling. I die.

So that's what I've been up to last two weeks. Oh and DH and I finally made our hotel bookings for our Japan holiday, but that's another story for another entry.  Till more updates, toodles!